"I completely agree with you!"
And the voices drown, the chattering flows around, slides on the lips and shines through the eyes. And it's all there, you are lost. You have absolutely no idea of why you're saying what you're saying. That wasn't what you thought, or the way you thought it! And it still feels okay, your goldfish soul can leave it all behind without any special regret on next week's menu. So maybe the words aren't that important anyways, not all of them at least. How do you know when you can treat a word carelessly and when a single phrase can change a relationship, a relationsheep, a movie, a life?
Some other times you do listen to yourself speaking without any feedback at all. That's more like an echo. The little cynical and critical beast sitting inside yout head and the amazed little lady sitting on the corner of your lips-waiting for the next passionate kiss, they all enjoy your ways of showing the world the fantastic ingenuity you posseed. Or your genius-like idiocracy.
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I think sometimes the message is not to be found in the words, but somewhere else. Have you noticed how you often get people wrong or don't really understand them if you overanalyze the words they've used?
In some situations, while "night talking" for example, we just talk to keep each other company at otherwise lonely hours. The words lose their importance. "The medium is the massage", sort of.
I was also going to comment on the "You have absolutely no idea of why you're saying what you're saying. That wasn't what you thought, or the way you thought it!" part, but I have no clue on how I could express that in English.
And by the way, this post is nothing like the post I imagined in my head. But my goldfish soul is totally okay with that.
I think I sort of constructed a reply to your comment while reading it. But it all fell apart at the end, and I'm not sure it's just the goldfish thing.
For a moment I was trying to argue with what you wrote, that I red it again an though it was smart and you were right, and finally I convinced myself this whole word thing was just to difficult to be generalized.
(And now it will feel like whispering. I think that's what a lot of people -including me- does with words: the chew them and screw them apart 'til what you thought would be the matter's soul turns out to be an incredible mess and a tasteless porridge).
Anyways, at last, yes. I might have missed the essence of a sentence for concentrating on "why the hell did that person used that word?". Or even worse, for concentrating on the way things were said, or how often. And here we're out of the "word matter".
Maybe nightchat is just like listening to a song, or communicating something not by its content but by its frequency, by its low voice, by its funny way, by its pretended patheticity.
Maybe when you're serving at a bar that client didn't really mean to be rude, but you just fix your attention on the way he said "I want a beer" or "I can have a beer" instead of "Can I have a beer?". He probably was in his own universe, thinking of what how he would have to tell his best friend that he's moving away for good[...] Okay, that's another story.
Maybe you get it in the ways of the words. All the stories that are bound around the facial expressions and gestures of the owners of those very lips who give birth to such incredible mysteries. But I'm overanalyzing again. Am I not?
You make some really good points there!
I probably came up with what I'm about to say because it's late and I just got very tired, but here it comes: notice how we use words to discuss the importance of words. Sounds odd, though it doesn't change anything of what we've already written. It's just a little fascinating. Like... repairing a screwdriver with the same screwdriver.
And by the way, I like the music here. Really sets a mood :)
I think i use too many words anyways. I really look forwards to the day in which I'll be empty for words and will have to express myself by means of pictures. Or miming. Or jumping.
Thanks :)
I doubt you'll ever run out of words sweet:) And what a dull world it would be, filled with wordless people.
I think the eyes are key to nighttalk and just the feeling those you're with gives you:)
While nighttalking all senses are enhanced and though you don't agree with anything the other person is saying it's the whole intense-staring-situation that manipulates you into thinking he/she's right.
Words are not important anyways, I think it's the thought and love that counts while nighttalking and talking in general. Although I see it's definitely an advantage to have a message and not just focus on Arne-Daniel's massage-idea;)
Even though you seem to partly disagree with me, Camilla, I don't think I could agree more with you.
My first comment was ment like "you choose to nighttalk, and that's how you tell the message (or give the message massage?)" more than "you don't control the message, the nighttalk does".
In a Maria-Arne nighttalk situation you got to have that filosophy. I'll show you why:
- Maria: Hi!
- Me: What? Yeah, hi there!
- Maria: (says something, probably interesting)
- Me: Sorry, what? Couldn't hear you there. My phone speaker volume is so low and etc.
- Maria: (says something interesting again and mentions NZ)
- Me: Ehm... very interesting! Oh yeah, New Zealand! That's cool. When do you leave?
- Maria: (answers)
- Me: Hmm, okay. Eh... What?
As you see, because I'm deaf any nighttalk could potentially become a messageless nightmare. If it was not for the fact that someone actually called me or picked up the phone, that is.
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